November 12

Good evening Friends!  We are very close to surviving another week of 2020, Yay Us!  I am starting to enjoy this little project of mine, posting on my blog everyday in November for anyone that is late to the party.  I am paying more attention to what happens in my day and how I feel, not just pushing through the day.  How often do we just move through the day going from one task to the next without stopping to be present and in the moment. Today I was on a work call when I got the news that two of my peers were moving up the corporate ladder, this will make the 3rd this year.  I can’t say that I blame them, life in long term care is pretty challenging. I have to confess that I felt a little pain of jealousy, they hadn’t been in the job as long as I had; why were they moving up and on and not me? 

Why were they moving up and on and not me?  I thought about it for a few seconds and then reminded myself of the vision I had when I was in Colorado.  That vision did not include moving to Michigan, Florida, Maryland, New Jersey and definitely not Houston.  While maybe a new fancy title would have been the goal once upon a time I can safely say that’s no longer the end game.  I recognize that while my vision does include eventually being able to travel a lot more and being able to spend a lot more time in Colorado; I am right where I am supposed to be.  My goals, my dreams, my wishes have changed. The things I used to value have changed. That’s not to say that a shiny new title is out of the question.  I just need to fully flesh out what the vision is and the steps I need to take to get there.  I need to decide exactly what I want and then ask for it.  

I remember growing up I never really had a clear picture of what my life would be.  I knew I wanted to live in the big city, I really wanted a BMW and was all about labels and brands; hello Coca-Cola Shirts, Swatch Watches and Keds.  And now, well I do live in the big city, and I drive a sweet, bright red Volvo that got better ratings than the BMW, and I have a few labels in my closet; but really I am more interested in experiences, time with family, friends and time outdoors. But I never had a clear picture of a house with a partner and 2.5 kids, things just sort of happened to point me in the direction I needed to go.  But now?  Now I am finding it easier to see the life I want to live in the future.  I know I don’t want to make the sacrifices that are necessary to climb the corporate ladder and honestly I love my community and my team and the work I do, not everyone is meant for life in long term care.  It feels really good to know and understand where I am right now in life and that I am starting to piece together the road map for many more new adventures.  Now I have to do some hard work, I need to spend more time fleshing things out, building the vision and how I will get there. I hope you are able to dream, to wish and to dare to reach for new things.  It’s never too late, you’re never too old and it’s never going to be the absolute right time so let’s get to work. 

About AuntJenFox

I'm a 45 year old single woman living in Dallas, TX. I'm a licensed nursing home administrator, runner, Aunt, and Mom to a Welsh Corgi puppy named Eloise and a cat named Gracie. My life is anything but boring and I learn something new everyday.
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